And it occurred to me to go back to the very basis and answer the real question, who am I? Lately, I felt so touchy, very cranky at any issue, big or small. I felt so unloving towards others, all my soulish me wants to do is be alone. I can not be the only one going through some stuff I feel should just pass me by and let me be, but should that be a license to act uncomely.NO.
If the weight of the whole word God carries, how much is my tiny little inconsequencial weight? Am like God...can you please give answers to my plea ontime,am getting really worked up in here, as if I own God (what a joke I am).
I found the answers to who i am in one early morning devotion. What a revelation! What a sulking clot of ungrateful bloke I am, always jumping out of his element, Swift-footed, forgetful and unthinking.
Somewhere along the line, tears rolled, emotions poured out, nobody knows it but me. Then I realised who I am. Nothing but a flower quickly fading, here today but gone tomorrow. Hopeless and helpless without His grace.
Did the experience change me? It sure did. What did I leave at His Feet. My tears, my weakness, self-opinionated suitcase. What did I pick up? His strength in exchange for my weakness, His Love like never before, His assurance as always. What about my needs? Dream job,dream partner,dream house ,dream ministry ...all sorted before i was born.
Who am I? Am sure you know by now
I tot of u now & always.
Inspired by thirst 09,09
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